Estrella - It is hard to watch this from the sideliine. I am positive there are thousands of us wish to hold you and pass to you whatever possible that can be of comfort. No man or woman should ever be part of such hurt. May your path forward brighten and hold that brightness till the morrow brings you the comfort of the new day. Maybe knowing we are all on your side might give you some relief.
Be well my friend
Zidor